
took a picture of the moon tonight. ^___^
well the moon was nothing special, but i’ve missed photography and i miss how everything around me used to look beautiful in my eyes and how i was able to look at everything in a different way, as cliché as that may sound. i spent years going through my 12-hour days in school without food with my five-dollar-a-week pocket money just to save up for my dslr but i’ve been horrible at taking care of it for the past year and now i feel bad. for my camera - which i probably have to spend a few hundred dollars more on to repair - and for myself. all the skills i used to have are now gone and i miss them. lol “skills”. i barely had them, but at least i knew how to work the camera and that’s what i miss. what started of as an excuse to be behind the camera instead of in front of it (yeah, i really hate being in pictures okay. and i’m sorry but it annoys me when people take pictures of me secretly or as a joke. it’s more than me being ~shy~ or w/e. i have serious issues with it.) ended up being one of the most beautiful things i’ll ever discover. looking at everyday things and viewing them in a way not many other people do, capturing moments that will never come back.. it’s amazing and surreal all at the same time. i really really want to go back to photography but idek where to start now. but i’m trying.
….just scroll past this post and ignore it please, idek what this is. 4am, time to go to bed.